Boldness in the Face of Anxiety

Anxiety. Merriam-Webster’s Dictionary defines it as “an abnormal and overwhelming sense of apprehension and fear.” It’s estimated that about 18% of Americans suffer from an anxiety disorder. I, unfortunately, am one of them.

Boldness in the Face of Anxiety

It can be crippling at times. Debilitating. Even now, as I write these words, my heart rate is elevated. Why? I’m at home. In a safe environment. Surrounded by people who love me (most of the time). Why is my body reacting as if I’m in danger? Because, in a way, I am.

I’m writing these words to be published. For the world to see. Strangers. Many of whom will disagree. Likely judge me. What if they leave a negative comment? Tell me how bad I am? Make me feel like the worst person in the world? These thoughts alone are enough to make me want to shut down this blog and disappear. But if I succumb to fear, nothing will be gained. What example am I setting to the young reader who also suffers from anxiety (or some other debilitating illness/disorder)?

The fact of the matter is, I need to move forward despite my disadvantage. Try that much harder. Take risks. Yes, I’m going to stumble. Yes, I will get hurt. Yes, there will be times I wish I never created this stupid blog. But I’m still going to.

Why?

Because I’m not the only one out there struggling, and if I can inspire one person to push themselves just a little bit further, it’ll be worth exposing myself to judgement and ridicule.

Unfortunately, we don’t live in a safe world, and as much as I wish I could live in a cozy, protective bubble, I can’t. It’s not healthy. And it doesn’t lead to a fulfilling life. Instead, I’m going to be bold, even in the face of anxiety—no, despite my anxiety. It’s the only way I’ll grow.

So, if you want to leave a negative comment, go ahead. It’s not gonna stop me. Because my anxiety doesn’t control me—I rule over it.

‘Til next time!

Amélie

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